Today, 1st December, marks the beginning of the end to 2011. We are left with a mere 31 days and counting to the start of a new year, new promises & renewed hope.
But the focus should not be on the coming year. No, not yet!
For me, I view the next 31 days as the most crucial time of the year. Simply put, we have 31 days to make the most of 2011 so that we may leave it as we see fit. For those who've had a tough year, you can either reflect on the past 11 months and spend the remaining days cursing your luck while the clock ticks down on your precious time, OR you can make use of these 31 days to make plans for the next year with optimism. For those who've enjoyed the past 11 months of their life, make it 12 & bring that joy into the next year.
You see, we decide how we want to live our life, how we want to start new years and end the old ones. It's too easy for us to be judgemental and cynical towards life. We always complain & linger over the past without ever looking forward, constantly looking back over our shoulders. Before we know it, we've never really enjoyed the scenery that passes us by on our journey. Sceneries that include family, friends and moments that can never be repeated.
For me, I'm going to try and make the most of the next 31 days. How about you?
The supreme playmaker, the ultimate midfield maestro, the heart-beat of La Barca...
Every touch sublime, every turn an art, every pass an opportunity...
And every time I play, I just wanna forget my defensive instincts and just become the conductor, with the field as my stage and my team-mates as my orchestra. Unfortunately, I lack the opportunity and the ability. So I try to emulate another one of my footballing heroes - Alessandro Nesta. Hahahaha...
Age has not been kind to me physically with 2 injury ravaged ankles although I long to play with the enthusiasm of a 16 year old, the stamina of a 24 year old and the brains of a 30 year old. One out of 3 ain't that bad eh? No prizes for guessing which of the 3.
Standing at only 1.70m & weighing in at 66kg, what exactly makes Xavi stand out above the rest? - It's his vision and composure on the ball. No other midfielder exudes such a class post-Zidane. His awareness is simply superb, picking out team-mates almost instinctively, whether it's for Barca or La Rojas. That is why those 2 teams often struggle for ideas whenever he's unavailable.. such is his influence.
Sigh... Perhaps in 8 years time when I qualify to play for the veterans I may just get an opportunity to perform like Xavi. Until then, I have another 8 years to fine-tune my abilities!!!
Ramblers SC will NOT, for the first time in 4 years, feature in the Chinese League Quarter-finals after a shock 1-0 defeat to Nibong Tebal United.
After 4 successive campaigns culminating in 3 quarter-finals and 1 semi-final appearance, the boys in blue failed to live up to their reputation in a difficult group comprising CRC, Timuran, Anak Malaysia, Bintang Baru, PYFC, Inpro SC & NT United. And I was devastated as anyone with the loss.
This year we had a good blend of youth and experience as we racked up 10 points from the first 5 games & sitting pretty at the top. So what went wrong? I am not here to find a scape-goat or to point fingers and create a hugeeee fuss but this is just my take on the entire tournament:
Formation & tactics - the essence of any team. Did we get it right? What were they in the first place? We didn't seem to have a style of play nor did we have any idea of what to do when we had the ball. Players were too static and the on-field movements weren't enough. We just didn't move as a unit from the back to the front. Too many loose balls were lost to the opposition as well. We played a 4-4-2 but we didn't understand how to play with the formation, to use its' strength and deal with its' weakness. All we knew was to fight and pump the ball forward. We were a good team because of it, but sadly we never looked like champions. Poay and Chien were the central cogs in a good machine but they struggled to impose themselves at times because the players around them couldn't adapt. That limited their creativity. There was no pass-and-move game( which they were more suited to). Brian Clough once said "Football is a simple game. You get the ball, pass and then move" We were definitely lacking that.
Wing play - The absence of Ming on the wings was another deciding factor as he provides us with electrifying pace on the sides. The wingers seemed short of ideas and were mostly lost. In a 4-4-2, the wingers are to tuck in when we're defending and then move out wide when we attack. They also have the option to cross or cut in and shoot or pass but the decision to do so must be made prior to receiving the ball. There wasn't a change of pace or turn as well as they didn't know how to utilize their power, often wasting it on chasing lost causes and then burning out when we lost the ball. Their recovery was slow to say the least and this left the fullbacks exposed on many occasions. We conceded too many goals because of attacks from the sides. We lacked awareness, had poor anticipation & no creativity from the wings.
Blooding youth - the youth players came in to the team as champions of their Youth League. However, there was just 1 highlight - this wasn't the Youth league, this was the SENIOR league. The game, the demands, the pace, everything was just different. We had standouts like Ti Wei, Benson & Li Yoong. They deserved they're place (even if it was, at times, because there were no other standouts in their position). I am confident the experience will do them good & they will mature as better players in time. But did we rely too much on youth? Especially when it came to subs? We had seasoned campaigners on the sidelines. Seniors who fought together for the past 5 years. I personally thought they should have been given a chance - utilized. Yesterday I saw a moment which kinda p*ssed me off: A senior player (with very good control and game smarts) had control of the ball on the byline but as he made his move, he was shouted from the sidelines to pass the ball to a junior player eventhough the senior had total control of the situation. Do we have so little faith on our seniors?
We lost the game and the tournament - that is a fact. But we can still build for tomorrow and come back stronger. We fight as a team, win as a team and we lose as a team as well. We can be stronger, better... The decision rests on the team.
My energy & enthusiasm feels so distant at the moment. Like a million miles away. Light years even.
I feel tired.. close to the point of just letting go of most things. And yet, deep down, the terrier in me refuses to give in, believing that with every passing moment, with every brick that life throws at me, I will survive. I have done it before & I shall do it again. I look back at those moments with proud nostalgia, parading the scars like a war veteran. But with every passing moment and thrown brick, I grow weary as well. Perhaps it serves as a reminder that age is catching up on me. It's as if life's salty winds are slowly but surely corroding the metal that makes up my soul with every gush and blow.
How did it ever come to this? - I have no idea. All I do know is that we have no control over the things that life throws at us, but we are responsible for how we want to react to it. So far I've been trying my best to manage every aspect of my life.. My job, my family, my relationship, my friends.
Unfortunately, my job has not been a bed of roses this past year. Probably more thorns than roses! Switching companies and finding myself thrust into the fray with very little support and high expectations, lacking good direction (or any direction at all!!!) & bereft of positive motivation coupled with extremist demands from a short-sighted HQ is the highlight of my career. A bad experience I should say but an experience nevertheless and I believe that I've grown richer with it.
I'm now contemplating a switch.. again. However, the fear that I might not be able to accomplish or meet the requirements of the targeted position has been constantly playing on my mind. I want a change. I need a change. But is it the right change? Can I do it? There's only one way to find out I guess...
It was pretty straight forward - win the game and we have 1 hand on the trophy.
Our opponents for the evening were De'Shang Nite and because they were languishing in the final 8th spot for Cup qualification, they had to win this game too which made it all the more difficult.
As I prep-ed myself up in goal for the 1st of 2 title deciding clashes, I knew I had to focus. Unfortunately, just like the past few weeks, I found that (focus) hard to do. And so it showed.
The first 20 minutes were purely CCFC and we kept them pinned in their own half with 2 well taken goals from forgotten-man Wei and veteran terrier Han. And it got even better when they were reduced to 10 men when their captain & centre back was sent off for a vicious lunge on wing wizard Ming. But then our midfield colossus Max went down injured shortly after and 10 crazy minutes turned the game completely on its head & in their favor!
The first was when I failed to commit to aerial combat from a freekick and although I parried a close range header away, the rebound fell to a lurking player at the near post and he gleefully slammed it home. The second was a comedy of sorts (tho I found nothing funny about it), when I let a speculative long range effort bounce in front of me and out of my reach into the net. The expression on my team-mates faces said it all. They were disgusted.. as was I.
The second half was spent chasing for that elusive winning goal and thankfully Jerome hit the winner with his newly bought Adidas boots to cap off an exciting evening whilst my goal was being bombarded with shots, freekicks & taunts from rival players and supporters. Even Ah Han had a go at me a few times. The opponents smelled blood from my 2 mistakes and they took their chances however they could but thankfully we kept the score in our favor but most importantly, here's what I learned:
Life Lesson #1: Everyone has good days and bad days. Sometimes we will even have terrible I-don't-wanna-come-out days. There's no science for predicting when this will happen but life needs to go on because we don't just live for ourselves, other people depend on us too. Although I had a rare off day, I just couldn't give up because my team-mates were also counting on me.
Life Lesson #2: Everyone makes mistakes. Sh*t happens. Get over it! Instead of beating myself up over the first half, I decided to just get it together & it proved much better as I came out more confidently to collect crosses and even produced a 1-on-1 save!
Life Lesson #3: Don't hide behind excuses! When I made those 2 mistakes, I immediately blamed everyone except myself. I blamed the bad week, the poor defence, the pitch, etc. But what I soon realized was that in order for me to solve the problem, I had to face the problem - ME! If we hide behind excuses, we will never be able to move forward because we'll be stuck with the same mistakes time & again.
Life Lesson #4: Never let external factors tell you that you're not good enough. I had a bunch of rival players and supporters taunting me for my mistakes throughout the entire 2nd half. Whenever people tell us that we're not good enough, we usually just cave in & feel demotivated. Instead, we should be showing them how good we are. If I had given in to their taunting, I'm sure we would have lost the game by a big margin.
Life Lesson #5: Reputation means NOTHING! People take their places & position for granted. So what if you've been great?! So what if you're top of the league?! The effort you've put in to build that reputation means nothing if we don't try our best in everything we do. And for those who are not really there yet, don't give up! If we run helter skelter when faced with tougher opposition, whether it's external or within us, we will NEVER progress. It's all about ATTITUDE.
Needless to say, I had a very tiring week and day. But I'm glad I was able to derive some life lessons from what I went through in yesterday's match. Now for the Championship!
That pretty much sums up last week. Why do people react without even the slightest regard of the consenquences?
Experience makes us react & bonds that we’ve forged make it even harder to consider anything else beyond what we see or know deep down. Rage, bitterness, sadness clouds our judgement.And the worst of these is sadness – a sorrow so heavy that it eats away inside and pollutes your soul with wild thoughts of could-be’s and maybe’s. Most people never meant what they did or said – nobody ever does. Do we regret it? – Most of us do. How many reactions were planned?! If it was, then we have another word for that – it’s called execution.
But we are judged by how we react. The reasons and regrets are never considered. Why? Shouldn’t the root be explored? Isn’t prevention better than cure? Life moves on they say. It moves on. True. But it also carries with it the stains of yesterday, nicely smudged on the sheets of tomorrow. Honesty & sincerity are dead because people on the other side of the fence are usually happy where they are; only occassionally peering over to see how you’re doing but never asking how they can help you cross over. Of course they always say they sympathize with you and they understand, etc. But do they really? Because “sympathize” and “understand” are both verbs which are doing words that describe an action. Sometimes a caring word, a concerned text or a simple phone call means so much more than we think.
“Hey, how about stepping over to the other side? – No thanks, although I KNOW what you’re going through. I’m fine here with the rest of humanity and you shouldn’t be p*ssed off you’re on the other side all alone. I don’t see why you should be p*ssed in the first place!”
I’m not a bitter-angst-filled individual riled by the unfairness of life. I learned long ago that life’s a b*tch. The world is owned by the loud, the brash, & the socially manipulative. The quiet and passive are always forgotten while the fools are always taken advantage of. That is the way it has always been & I don’t see it changing in my lifetime. I am not a saint nor am I absolved from any wrongdoing myself. In fact, I am guilty of committing some of the worst and most distasteful acts of social terrorism (if you can call it that) for which I am not proud of – at all!
I am afraid really. I am afraid of turning into the very demon I have battled vicariously from surfacing. I am afraid of losing the people around me for the things I have (or have not) done. Most importantly, I am afraid of being a hypocrite of action.
Another hecticperiod is just on the horizon as the SPM 2010 results will be released soon. And that means a lot of work for the people in my industry!
The private education industry is a booming business with more & more students opting to further their studies in a private college than risk their future in the STPM. Why? - Because in a nutshell, students either want to: A. get "it" over with in a course/program of THEIR own CHOOSING or...
B. to experience the "razzle-and-dazzle" that comes with college life or... C. they want to feel the need of belonging by following the choices made by friends
Regardless of the above, marketers in the industry are salivating over the prospects accessible to them as the potential is huge! It was definitely a different story 5-8 years back as the provisions from PTPTN were not accessible or not as EASILY available to students in the private colleges. Now, with the government's initiative to boost the level of education in Malaysia, everyone that qualifies for a course with a minimum of 3 credits & a pass in the BM exam for SPM can pursue a higher education qualification.
Isn't that fantastic? - Absolutely!
It is no wonder then that private colleges are sprouting like mushrooms everywhere. In my home state of Penang, there are no less than 20 MAIN institutions offering programs in Business right up to Graphic Design or even Baking! And around these BIG players, there are the smaller ones whom are fighting & feeding off the scraps of what's left in an increasingly competitive market no matter if they are offering certificates, diplomas, degrees or even SKM courses.
It is precisely this reason that private education providers need to step up in their efforts to stand above the rest. It is no longer sufficient to base their A&P strategies on reputation & history alone. Or even fancy gimmicks & blanket strategies (i.e. blanketing the whole state with banners!). It's creative, it's good marketing but does it help you sell? Afterall, at the end of the day, colleges are judged by their enrollment numbers, not by the number of students who know who you are or who comes over for a visit. It's all about CLOSING that registration. Good marketing helps, but it takes more than that to boost numbers.
The Internet (Google & Facebook in particular) has shaped a whole different generation of students. Students whom are well-connected, whom are well-informed and most importantly, whom are NOT stupid! And it is sad that some colleges are still of the opposite opinion.
For me, I believe in 3 core values in a college's sales technique that paves the way to a successful enrollment:
Honesty - be truthful in everything that you say & do. Like I said, students are no longer the air-heads that colleges once perceived them to be. They can smell a lie if it's coming. And they will bite back harder if they find out that there were some indiscrepencies. You wouldn't like the impact it'll bring to your institution especially when freedom of speech is exactly that on the Internet (think Facebook, Blogs, Twitter!)
Sincerity - be genuine & they will ALWAYS come back. Even if they don't, they'll definitely refer friends. Make a little effort, smile, spend a bit more time on consulting that student and you will definitely reap the rewards
Confidence - confidence breeds success. If you're not confident in your product or your company, you will emit a not so favorable aura... and students as well as parents will see right through that. Why study in a place where even the marketer is not confident?
Consumers today are spoilt for choice. If you're not interested in their business, they will take it elsewhere. And it's the small details that make the difference between being good and being great. It's a numbers game in the end but wouldn't it be awesome if you had one that was as high as it could be?
Phew...!!! It's been one helluva week. The whole place is so much different than the one I've been with for the past year. The culture. The people. Basically, the whole package! Hahaha... But that is to be expected when we move on at a new place. It's been challenging so far & I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that I can see this through.
I'm really, really, really hoping that I can do the job. I'm not usually someone who'll doubt my abilities but I think the fear of failing keeps creeping up behind me. Sigh...
BUT... that's also one of the things that motivates me!
Speaking of motivation, I think it's important to have things & especially people to motivate us. Not too long ago, I remember having very few motivational factors. And so I went thru (or wandered thru) life mostly aimless, clueless & occasionally restless. At times I still wallow in regret, albeit momentarily, for not turning my life around sooner. For being afraid to change.
They say experience is the best teacher & I certainly believe that's true. But there is another teacher that will continue to guide us. That reaches out to our needs. That picks us up & dusts us off when we fall. That whispers in our ear that things are gonna be alright. I'm lucky to have found that in someone that I continuously find myself falling for over & over again, every time we meet. And it's therein that I find the strength & courage to face life's challenges.
But now I better hit the sack or else my physical strength won't be able to match my emotional & mental strength!!!
As I sit at my desk counting down the days until my departure, I can't help but feel a tad reluctant to leave. Unfortunately, things have already been set in motion and February 26th is the day.
I have enjoyed both a fantastic & enriching experience with the people around me. They say the greatest asset in any company is its' people - I couldn't agree more. It has made me realize the importance of treasuring the people who work with you everyday and these people I have come to know have been absolutely top-class. Donnie, Anwar, Mimi, Alex, Elaine, Wendy, Simon, Lynn & Jayne - I salute you & I am indebted to your friendship & camaraderie. There are many more who have touched my life but it is these few that "courageously" had to put up with me day in & day out :-)
I am not bitter about the events that have transpired over the past month. I choose to see things as clearly & as optimistic as I can. But I shall take with me the lessons learnt from an awkward situation where good judgment & basic common sense were missing.
I believe that great leaders are not made.. they are molded. And there is a thin line in simply being a good leader & a great one. Good one's are competent with their product knowledge, great one's are competent with relationships - No prizes for guessing which of the two will inspire better growth.
In a world that has become so commercialized, where the client is also now the product, it is essential that we are led by leaders who care - And not only for their own pockets, benefit or status! Great leaders inspire.. they represent pillars of strength.. an avenue of hope. Good soldiers do not necessarily make fantastic generals. Likewise a top employee doesn't necessarily make a first class manager. But strong leadership can be forged.. as long as the person is keen & has an open mind, who is not afraid to make mistakes, who learns from it, and who puts the interest of other above his own.
Since it's the Chinese New Year, I thought I'd come up with some traits that truly make us Malaysian Chinese a one-of-a-kind:
1. You love to talk about food. You're already thinking about what to have for dinner
while eating lunch. "I'm stuffed. What shall we have for dinner?"
2. You dive into a communal-style meal the moment the dish lands on the table only to
hesitate at the last morsel of food on the serving dish.
3. You seize the opportunity to make a U-turn anywhere ... especially where there is a
sign telling you not to. Well, so long as the cops aren't in sight.
4. You slow down at an accident site to take down the car number plate, but won't step
out of your car to help - the victim could be a robber!
5. You make an appointment for 10am and conveniently show up a half hour
late - Malaysian time, what ...
6. You pop open the wet tissue packet at the Chinese restaurant by squeezing the trapped
air to the top of the packet before proceeding to smash your fist into it. The louder the pop
the better.
7. You have roughly six meals a day (breakfast, mid-morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea,
dinner and supper). Then there's the snacking - chips, cookies, kuih and the like.
8. Your accent and language style vary according to the race of the person you are
conversing with.
9. You exclaim loudly how expensive everything is, even though the item may in fact be
going for a steal. "Wah! So expensive, ah? Hak sei ngor (Scare me to death)!"
10. You "dis" our country all the time, but as soon as something good happens (like
winning the AFF Suzuki Cup), you morph into a proud Malaysian.
11. You like to eat chicken feet.
12. You suck on fish heads and fish fins.
13. You have a Chinese knick-knack hanging on your rear view mirror.
14. You love to sing Karaoke no matter the occasion.
15. Your hair sticks up when you wake up.
16. You'll haggle over something that is not negotiable.
17. You love to use coupons and/or vouchers.
18. You can drive around for hours looking for the best parking space.
19. You tap the table when someone pours tea for you.
20. You unwrap gifts very carefully, so you can reuse the paper.
21. You spit bones and other food scraps on the table.
22. You save grocery bags, tin foil, and tin containers.
23. You pick your teeth at the dinner table (but you cover your mouth).
24. You don't own any real Tupperware - only a cupboard full of used but carefully rinsed
margarine tubs, takeout containers,and jam jars.
25. You have a collection of miniature shampoo and lotion bottles that you take every
time you stay in a hotel.
26. If you are male, you clap at something funny and if you are female,you giggle
whilst placing a hand over your mouth.
25. If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they ask if you've eaten, even if it's
midnight.
26. You starve yourself before going to all-you-can-eat places.
27. You own pirated VCDs or DVDs
28. Dinner always includes soup and you use a special extra large spoon just for soup.
29. You bring oranges (or other produce) with you as a gift when you visit people's
homes.
30. You fight over who pays the dinner bill.
So there you have it folks! The top 30 of my list. I hope it gave you a hearty laugh this
Chinese New Year.
[This list was made just for laughs & it was in no way meant to be offensive :-)]
One of the most sought after or talked about subjects during Chinese New Year has got to be about horoscopes & feng shui. Although I do believe in the energy properties of feng shui (in relation to the magnetic resonance of the Earth's energy flow - I wonder if I got that right), I can't say I'm a big believer in horoscopes.
I'm not saying this because the Rabbit year seemingly does not favor my animal sign, the Rooster, but it's just that I have a hard time consigning my life to someone else's prediction of how it's gonna turn out.
I'm a firm practitioner of self-navigation. I believe that our fate is not carved in stone. Despite the difficulties, and the situations surrounding us, from our birth to our current living conditions, man always has a choice. It doesn't mean that being born into poverty will condemn a man into poverty forever. Too many of us stay walled in by our very own perception. Sure... we all start off differently in life. Some are rich, some are lucky, some are good looking... but we're all on the same journey. The secret is not to compete with others, but to rise beyond what we thought we could be.
I for one will battle it out with whatever life has in store for me this year. I will not give up.. I refuse to surrender to chance.. I will make my own choices. And if it doesn't work out the way I want it to.. I'll just make some adjustments here and there in order to get to where I want. How about you?
